The lack of blog entries is a sign of what I suspect may have been a serious bout of depression. At no time was I suicidal, nor did I (or anyone else) think hospitalization would be necessary. However, my inactivity and overall lack of energy and drive worried me. One red flag was when I looked at the current volume of my diary. It is a 200-page composition book, and I wrote in this volume for the first time on May 1. Today is August 7, and I am only up to page 57.
Per my Casio Data Bank watch, it is now 2:26 in the afternoon, Eastern Daylight Savings Time. I am not at work right now because my CPAP machine kept acting up, and it was nearly impossible for me to sleep. I was finally dozing off into a restful state when my alarm sounded. I had just enough strength to phone my supervisor and tell her I wouldn't be coming in, and then fell back into bed... and was unable to sleep. (This is due to a combination of the CPAP, which is in need of a new data card with new settings, and Nuvigil, the wakefulness drug I just started. The Nuvigil may be working too well at the moment. My body needs to get used to it.)
Getting out of the house and onto the trike worked pretty well for me. A trike ride has yet to fail to rejuvenate me--I keep hoping I can get my psychiatrist to declare it medically necessary, so my insurance will pay for it. I had a great ride to the Ohio State campus, and to Thompson Library, where I am sitting in the lab typing this.
A week from tomorrow, I will be on the road. Susie has spent the summer in Florida with her mom, and I will be making my first journey to the Sunshine State on ther 15th. On that night, I'm hopping a Greyhound to Orlando. It'll be a 22-hour trip, with an hour-long transfer in Atlanta. I'll spend two full days in Merritt Island, and on Sunday morning, Susie and I will fly back to Columbus via Southwest Airlines. This will be the first time I've flown on an airplane since 1983, when I lived in Boston, and used airplanes semi-regularly to get to Ohio or to Washington, D.C. I will have some pictures and blog entries from this trip.
A definite step in the right direction for me was my 26-hour road trip to Washington, D.C. the weekend before last. A friend invited me on Facebook, and I accepted, and was surprised at how underwhelmed I was about the whole thing. Usually a trip to Washington has me stoked with adrenaline from head to toe.
This was a rally to ban fracking, an issue which affects many natives of Pennsylvania, Ohio, and upstate New York. In my childless days, I paid little attention to environmental issues, shrugging it off by saying, "The world can do what it wants after I'm dead," but that whole picture changed once I became a parent.
The Stop the Frack Attack took place on the West Lawn of the U.S. Capitol. We left Columbus just after midnight from the Franklin University parking lot, and made it to Washington (by way of Interstates 68 and 70) just after 8 a.m.
I like schedules like this. The rally itself didn't start until 1:30, so I had plenty of time for walking around Washington. Washington is a very pedestrian-friendly city, although it is tropical in the summer. I had no plans to join any guided tours. They always try to hurry you through too many sites in too little time. The bus dropped us off at Union Station, and I got my backpack and began walking toward Chinatown.
I had an 11:30 lunch date with my friend Robert Nedelkoff, the man the British Museum and the Library of Congress consults for accuracy. We had several emails flying back and forth between Columbus and Silver Spring about just where we were going to meet for lunch. My first choice had been The Tombs, a bar and restaurant in Georgetown a block or two from the famous Exorcist stairs. Looking at a map made me realize that Georgetown was a little too off track for going to the rally. I would have had to inhale my lunch and then catch the Metro toward Capitol Hill. So we agreed to meet at Tonic at Quigley's Pharmacy in Foggy Bottom, where we had eaten before.
My walk through Chinatown was to look at Wok and Roll, the Chinese restaurant at 604 H St. NW. Robert and I had eaten there before, but my interest is because, in 1864 and 1865, it was the Surratt boarding house, the meeting place for John Wilkes Booth and his conspirators as they plotted the abduction (and eventual assassination) of Abraham Lincoln. For her hospitality, the owner of the boarding house, Mrs. Mary Surratt, was hanged in July 1865, the first woman executed by the Federal Government.
|The William Petersen House, also known as The House Where Lincoln Died, 516 10th St. NW in Washington. Visting this place and Ford's Theater (even when I don't have the time to go inside) is, in a way, my equivalent of visiting the Western Wall.|
Ancestors on my mother's side owned and operated coal mines in Noble County, Ohio, and my late uncle, Glenn McKee, often wrote in his poetry about the mine fires and the mined-out coal country of that part of Ohio. I took comfort in the fact they were probably rolling in their graves if they knew I was headed to Washington to protest fracking.
The truly joyous event of the trip to Washington was reuniting with an old friend. The name Bill McKibben is quite familiar to anyone in environmental circles. He is the founder of 350.org, an organization dedicated to solving the climate and earth crisis. He is also the author of The End of Nature and The Age of Missing Information. (The latter is the only book of his I have read, I confess.)
Bill graduated from Harvard in 1982, three months before my arrival in Boston. He had been president of The Harvard Crimson, which would become my employer and the focus of my life and activity. After he graduated from Harvard, he worked at The New Yorker, writing many of its "Talk of the Town" columns. Bill grew up in Lexington, Mass., just outside of Cambridge, and he would often stop in The Crimson's building on Plympton St. to visit when he was up from New York to visit his parents.
While he worked for The New Yorker, he volunteered as an advisor for the newspaper for an inner-city Manhattan high school. When the paper folded, he came to Cambridge and asked me, and one or two others, to typeset the farewell issue. (This was also the night of The Crimson's annual Alumni Dinner. After the fête at the Sheraton Commander Hotel, I went to work on the copy. A true Kodak moment: I was sitting at the CRTronic Linotype, my jacket draped over the back of the chair, my sleeves rolled up, the knot of my tie hanging down to mid-breastbone, and a can of Michelob at one hand and a can of Coke at the other. And yet the finished product looked beautiful.)
I suspected Bill would be one of the speakers, because he is a superstar in the environmental movement. The center of activity was a small dais on the West Capitol lawn, facing toward the Washington Monument (closed since the 2010 minor earthquake). And I was not disappointed. Bill was the third or fourth speaker.
I was able to shoot a video of Bill's speech, and my batteries miraculously lasted long enough to get the entire thing. I had the foresight to bring extra batteries for the camera, so I was able to shoot even more video and still pictures.
Once Bill stepped off the platform, I went to meet him. "Hey, Bill. It's Paul Evans, from The Crimson!" He laughed and hugged me, and said, "How are you doing, brother?" I thought he would remember me, because we had some common ground, however slight, other than The Crimson. His mother was born in Parkersburg, W.Va., as was I. (Whenever I'm tempted to ridicule West Virginia--a very popular sport when I was growing up--I try to bear in mind that I was born in Parkersburg because "advanced" Marietta had no obstetrician/gynecologist in 1963.)
I handed the camera to someone nearby, and immortalized the moment.
|Your intrepid diarist and Bill McKibben, July 28, 2012, West Lawn of the United States Capitol.|
What truly inspired me was the undercurrent of happiness and positive focus that guided this demonstration. I am not echoing the thoughts of New Age gurus who will happily collect your money and tell you that the victims of Hurricane Katrina should have thought more positively, and that six million Jews died under the Nazis because they chose to. Hubert Humphrey spoke (somewhat naïvely) about "the politics of joy" at the 1968 Democratic Convention in Chicago as police were breaking protestors' skulls with clubs and arresting reporters, delegates, and protestors en masse. At many peace march and political gatherings, I have often felt an undercurrent of hostility, of people who were itching for fights, and who delibertely tried to "sow dragons' teeth," which my English teacher Mrs. Curtis always warned us never to do.
I witnessed this when it came to a head in November 1982, when a march against the Ku Klux Klan in Washington degenerated into rock-throwing, tear gas, vandalism, and arrests. I was on the receiving end of tear gas, and have chronicled the experience here, in an earlier entry in this blog.
After the speakers left the podium, everyone took to the streets from Capitol Hill. There were about 5000 people, shouting and displaying every pun based on the word frack you can imagine (My personal favorite: GOD HATES FRACKS, a variation on the signs the Westboro Baptist Church alleged humans carry). There was no parade permit, but the police stood by and watched. Since we weren't all mobbing the streets like the rejects from Attila the Hun's army, they could relax. We were a celebratory mob. A young woman who was on the bus from Columbus periodically stepped out of the street and gave water bottles, sandwiches, and bread to homeless people sitting on benches nearby.
Only one time did I fear that the march would veer out of control. We converged on the American Petroleum Institute on L St. NW, on a Saturday when the doors were locked and no one was at work, save for a lone unarmed security guard in the lobby, who probably earned minimum wage. I'm sure all he wanted was to listen to the baseball game on the radio, but then here comes this mob that surrounds the entrance in a semi-circle, chanting, "The water! The water! The water's on fire!" with the responding, "We don't need no fracking, let the corporations burn!" (This was a parody of "The Roof Is On Fire," by Rockmaster Scott & the Dynamic Three, which I heard way too many times in the bars when I was at Ohio University.) The energy level was so high that I was afraid at some point someone would toss a trash can or brick through the glass doors. That would have been my cue to leave. (To echo the words of Messrs. Lennon and McCartney, "But when you talk about destruction, don't you know that you can count me out.")
The march ended at Franklin Square, at 14th and K Sts., NW. Many of the people opted to jump into the fountain in the center of the park. This was pure spontaneity, and I doubt anything on the march was choreographed or pre-arranged. There was no street theater or political statement to it. The temperature was around 85° F., with relative humidity hovering around 82% all day. (This, by D.C. standards, is cool for summertime.) Only a person extremely self-disciplined and -denying would not have been tempted to get in the fountain. (I didn't get in, but I stayed near the lip of the fountain and was "accidentally" splashed a few times.)